My 4th child is coming into the world real soon. Honestly, until this day, I do not know my feeling towards him. Actually, I did not expected him to come into our life that soon. Yup, an unplanned pregnancy; all my other 3 are unplanned too.

For almost 3 years, I have set up my mind that my son will be my youngest and I love him to bits. I pampered him as my youngest. Now his place will be taken over by this 4th baby. I actually feel sad for my son. Will he be neglected? Will he feel neglected?

But then, come to think of it, when I found out that I was pregnant with my 3rd, I didn’t want it! But when he came out from my tummy, I won’t trade anything in the world for him; maybe he is a boy, the son that we have been longing for.

I really hope that I will have the capacity to love my son the same and yet at the same time love my 4th as the youngest. I hope that the bonding will come the moment I breastfeed him. There won’t be any new baby bedding because I always co-sleep with all my children. Easier to breastfeed that way.

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