Hubby preached in church last Sunday. Honestly, I have no idea what was his sermon’s title! All I know that he preached about shining to the world, good Christian role model, be a good Christian role model and about the book Emotional Purity. He even brought a lollipop and licked it in front of the congregation! Go read the book and you will know what I am talking about.

A few hours before the preaching started, that was around 6am, I woke up from my nightmare and went to look for hubby to tell him about the nightmare and to be comforted by him.

It so happened that the dream coincide which his preaching topic and he shared it with the congregation! How embarrassing!!! Not only that, he went further and shared some personal stuff. The moment he said “Lastly…” I let go a long sigh of relief!

How I wish I was an Ostrich and I can stuff my head in a hole.

I have been going to hubby’s shop every evening this week with baby. Each time we stepped into the shop, baby will surely wants to latch to sleep. This arrangement is not good for me coz I need assist the customers while hubby takes his bath. A few times when baby is latching there will be customers coming in to photostat. I have no choice but to unlatch baby when the customer is not looking. It is very embarrassing; what is the customer saw my tits!

A blogger friend of mine left comment saying that soft music helps her baby to sleep soundly. Maybe I should try on my baby too. But I need to buy one of those mine ipods and place near him in his baby seat each time I go to hubby’s shop.

If hubby still practices law, I won’t be whining about money now. However, if hubby still practices law, he won’t be my husband now! If you read my love story before then you would know the reason.

Hubby said he does not like to practice law due the stress. I guess every job has their own stress and it depends on us on how to handle it; whether you are Mesothelioma lawyers, accountants, doctors, teachers, engineers or just a clerk.

With hubby running his own business, I think there is a certain level of stress in it when income is not sufficient, staff cheating, no staff and most of all his health is affected due to long working hours.

This is beautiful…just received it from my SIL via email (fwd email! hahaha)

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80s arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over in an hour before someone would be able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.
On examining it I saw it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors and got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor’s appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while! As she is a victim of Alzheimer’s disease.

As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised and asked him, ‘And you still go every morning, even though she doesn’t know who you are?’ He smiled as he patted my hand and said, ‘She doesn’t know me but I still know who she is.’

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm and thought, ‘That is the kind of love I want in my life. True love is neither physical nor romantic’.

True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

I should be writing this post in my Blogspot blog but according to my stats, less people reads this blog compared to that blog. So I shall rant here.

I was driving to hubby’s shop to send him his dinner yesterday evening. Even before I started driving, I made a plan to hop over to Giant with baby after hubby has done taking his dinner and bathing. I wanted to buy chicken thigh so that I can bake chicken again since my children loves it so much and I wanted to give some to my mom’s coz on that day, I told her I will give her some but ended up none at all coz after we dig in, all left was the breast part and my mom does not like that part.

As I was sitting at the counter, waiting for hubby to finish bathing I decided not to go and spend. This is because I am not getting enough income from online to pay my bills at the end of the month. This sucks!

Even though I know I can’t go to work now, I kept hoping that I can. Everyday when I drive my girls to kindy, I passes a few factories and I kept wondering whether there is any vacancy for me there. I miss earning for myself and for my family.

If you are wondering where is my husband; he is still around but I cannot depend on him. He wants to do what he likes even if it means not earning enough to support the family. I know he is praying and trying very hard to earn more but after 3 years, business is not doing any better. If I were him, I will go back to his previous, previous profession even though I dreaded it but I know I can get fix income every month for my family. To me, it is family first and my wants come later. But he is not me and I will not force him to do what he does not like.

Maybe this is one of the reasons as to why I want my baby to grow up faster. So that I can send him to a babysitter and go back to work. *sigh*

I better go back to sleep now. It is 5am already and I need to wake up at 7.30am to breastfeed and get my girls ready for kindy.

I have started sending dinner to hubby at his shop since he has to work full day after he terminated his one and only staff.

I drove there will ALL my children and they cause a havoc at the shop! The bigger ones will play catching in the shop, then they will rummage their daddy dinner to look for food that they can eat, then each of them will take a drink that is for sale there, then one of them wants to PU lar then PM lar and my baby will want to latch to sleep.

Today, I am going to send all of them to my mom’s except my baby.

Hubby fired his one and only employee because she has been dishonest many times. From the very beginning I already expected that she won’t be working long with us. Either she would leave for other job or we terminate her. Kinda disappointed that it is the latter.

I wonder how much of the business money has gone into her pocket. The first month when she started working with us, the sales dropped. I got a feeling that she “transferred” some of the sales into her pocket. She is not only dishonest but lazy too.

I kept telling hubby to switch on the CCTV again but he refused. Till today I still don’t understand the reason he didn’t want to do that.

Now we are back to square one until we get a replacement. Hubby will be working from 10am to 12mn Monday to Saturday!

Looking for durable outdoor chairs? Check this out.

Do you think this is durable enough?

We are in the midst of a big project whereby coconuts trees, starfruit trees and bushes has been uprooted to give way to this new project.

As not to waste the coconut trunk, hubby cut it into smaller parts and make it into a chair. So now we have a few chairs outdoor to sit on to enjoy the cool evening breeze.

I asked hubby whether he plants any tree on the family’s land. He said, “No.” I asked him, “Why?” He answered, “So that my wife doesn’t have any tree to boast about.”

Don’t worry lar hubby. Even if you plant a mangosteen tree (my favorite fruit), not that I can eat everything single mangosteen that grew on that tree. Life is no fun and meaningless when you don’t share.

One of the ways to loose weight is by fasting. This is how I fast; I still drink water but I will skip lunch. This will only work if you don’t overeat your breakfast and dinner. Oh ya! No supper please. Besides loosing weight, fasting is also a way of detoxing your body. In order for this to happen, you must drink a lot of water.

If you cannot live with only 2 meals a day and lazy to exercise, there is always the diet pill option; Fastin. Sounds almost the same as fasting eh.

We have so many birthdays in the family for the month of May and June but 2 days ago we celebrated those born in June. We had so much food; birthday cake, cupcakes, fried chicken, satay, spaghetti, chocolates and honey dew sago drink. If I am not breastfeeding my newborn, I will surely need the ephedrine!

Today, BIL and family from Ipoh is going to visit the Melaka Zoo. Must get hubby to bring the kids along because they need the exercise after all those feasting.

I know I am not rich.

But having someone telling you indirectly at your face that you are poor, it hurts.

Deep down, I really wish that God will bless us more than enough that we can be richer than them.

But I know that earthly treasures are nothing compared to the treasures that God has prepared for us in Heaven.

I play no musical instrument. I did learn how to play guitar but before I master it, I stopped. Then when I was in campus, I took a few piano lessons from one of my juniors in our Christian Fellowship but due to our busy schedule we stopped after a few lessons. When I was young, my parent couldn’t afford to send me to piano class. Looks like we can’t afford to send our children to any music class either. But we really hope that we could.

This is our latest look. He with his silly face; as always and I with my new bob hair cut which I regretted because my eldest daughter said it is not nice.

Do we look like we have 4 children already??? I still feel like we just graduated from varsity.

We hope that we will grow old gracefully and without any sickness if possible and not bedridden please. Can’t imagine having to wear adult diapers and my children having to wash my butt butt! So embarrassing.

I kinda expected this. Hubby is coughing and sniffing again. The reason…for the past two weeks he has been switching on the air-cond in our room in the afternoon because the weather is so hot. He knew his body cannot stand cold for long period but as usual, stubborn man. Now he is suffering due to his stubbornness.