This is beautiful…just received it from my SIL via email (fwd email! hahaha)

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80s arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over in an hour before someone would be able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.
On examining it I saw it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors and got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor’s appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while! As she is a victim of Alzheimer’s disease.

As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised and asked him, ‘And you still go every morning, even though she doesn’t know who you are?’ He smiled as he patted my hand and said, ‘She doesn’t know me but I still know who she is.’

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm and thought, ‘That is the kind of love I want in my life. True love is neither physical nor romantic’.

True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

I should be writing this post in my Blogspot blog but according to my stats, less people reads this blog compared to that blog. So I shall rant here.

I was driving to hubby’s shop to send him his dinner yesterday evening. Even before I started driving, I made a plan to hop over to Giant with baby after hubby has done taking his dinner and bathing. I wanted to buy chicken thigh so that I can bake chicken again since my children loves it so much and I wanted to give some to my mom’s coz on that day, I told her I will give her some but ended up none at all coz after we dig in, all left was the breast part and my mom does not like that part.

As I was sitting at the counter, waiting for hubby to finish bathing I decided not to go and spend. This is because I am not getting enough income from online to pay my bills at the end of the month. This sucks!

Even though I know I can’t go to work now, I kept hoping that I can. Everyday when I drive my girls to kindy, I passes a few factories and I kept wondering whether there is any vacancy for me there. I miss earning for myself and for my family.

If you are wondering where is my husband; he is still around but I cannot depend on him. He wants to do what he likes even if it means not earning enough to support the family. I know he is praying and trying very hard to earn more but after 3 years, business is not doing any better. If I were him, I will go back to his previous, previous profession even though I dreaded it but I know I can get fix income every month for my family. To me, it is family first and my wants come later. But he is not me and I will not force him to do what he does not like.

Maybe this is one of the reasons as to why I want my baby to grow up faster. So that I can send him to a babysitter and go back to work. *sigh*

I better go back to sleep now. It is 5am already and I need to wake up at 7.30am to breastfeed and get my girls ready for kindy.