Last week on this day, I went for a surgery to find the missing IUCD. Since that day, I dare not wet the “poked” area worrying that it will get infection and slower down the healing process. This is how I clean myself since that day. I wash my legs, I wash my hands and I wipe my body. In this way, my tummy does not get wet at all.

Today, after being assured by hubby that my wound has dried up, I brave myself and take a quick shower. It felt so good! But before that I make sure I really get myself dirty and sweaty; I swept the floor! It hurts a lil bit but won’t die one lar. hahaha.

But the arh…my tummy still bloated lar. How come the gas has not completely left my tummy? Maybe I should check out the liporexall review in case my tummy still bloats in another week time. It might not be gas but fat! Wahahahahahaha.

After 10 days staying day and night at my parents’ house and being fed my mom’s yummilicious dishes every day, my eldest daughter is fatter. Even though I reduced her rice portion and she eats fish only, no more a meat eater like before, she still put on weight. Is there any diet supplements for a 6yo???

Apart from food, being immobile most of the time is also the caused of it. My mom’s house is smaller and my children is not allowed to play outdoor for the fear of getting bitten by snakes. So most of the time they are indoor, sitting or lying down playing or watching TV!

I can’t go home with my health condition now. One more week I’ll be able to bring all of them home if the maid is not returned to us this weekend. Then I will make sure this daughter of mine jogs around the compound or play catching with her other siblings.

Sometimes I got a feeling that I won’t live a long life. I felt that my health is so fragile after each childbirth. That is the reason why I wanted to buy education insurance for my children even though we do not have fix income. At least I am assured that they can afford to further their studies when I am gone. Maybe I should consider getting a term life insurance at wholesale insurance. Some extra cash for my beloved hubby. So used to supporting him financially.

Especially when you are sick. But I don’t get that anymore; from my mom or from my husband. Is it because I am a mother of 4 now that I have to be stronger and stand more pain?

When I have to stand for a period of time to iron hubby’s uniform, I wish hubby would say, “Dear, don’t iron for me, I’ll do it myself.”

When baby demands to be carried, I wish my mom or my hubby (if he is around) would just snatch the baby from my arm and carry him without me requesting them to help.

Why no one stops me from doing some work around the house? Why no one tell me, “Please don’t walk too much, you go rest. I’ll do it for you.”

Don’t they know that I am in pain.

The first class room in the hospital supposed to come with hot and cold water in the bathroom and wash sink but when I turn on the Kohler faucets for hot water, cold water came out. Due to that, I did not bathe during my stay in the hospital because my room is freezing cold. My 3mo baby had a quick bath every day using the hot water from my thermos. He has too; he poops and PU in his diapers.

Girls will be girls. Even the nurses in the hospital talks about dieting and diet pill reviews. They talk the loudest during their night shift when the Head Nurse is not around. I was not able to sleep during to it because my room is nearby the nurse counter so I eavesdropped. Not my fault, they talk so loud. Hehe. Dieting has always been my topic of interest and I was so tempted to join them and tell them about my diet recipe.

Upon arriving at my mom’s house, I charged to the refrigerator to get a cold drink. I drank a cup of cold Soy Bean drink. Hours after I noticed that my tummy bloated. I was thinking to myself. “Don’t tell me that I need diet pills now coz I have been eating and sleeping during my 4D3N stay in the hospital.” I informed my mom about it and she said it must be the cold Soy Bean. No more cold drinks until I am completely healed.

During my trip to Kuching, my 2nd girl saw her 2yo cousin sister wearing heart jewelry. My girl kept asking me to buy her one. When we go to souvenirs shop, she will head to the jewelry corner and started looking for similar necklace with a heart pendant but to no avail. I managed to change her mind to accept a lil cute dolphin pendant made of seashell.

I really thank God for His blessing. During my stay in the hospital, I saw on the notice board that deposit for O&G operation is RM800 so I thought that the cost of my operation can go that high. Then the cost of the room I stayed is RM80 per day; that is for 1st Class Single Bed room. I need to at least stay there for 4 days and that would come up to more than a thousand ringgit. On top of that, my medical insurance does not cover anything that has to do with O&G operation.

My insurance agent cum church member came to visit and encourage us to trust God that He will provide. We prayed and did just that. I am so thankful that the bill is only RM49! It is so unbelievable.

The room cost is at the 3rd class price which is only RM3 per day. The operation cost is only RM20 and the lab test is only RM17.

If I went to have the laparoscopy done in a private hospital, sure a few thousand ringgit will be gone!

Again and again I worry. Hubby said that was what the Pastor was preaching in church today. Women’s biggest sin is WORRY.

Was it a negligence on the doctor’s part that the IUD went further in than it was supposed to. Or was there an unknown track/hole that made the IUD went to the wrong place. When I told my mom and sister that I have to go for an operation to remove the IUD, my sister immediately ask me to sue the doctor. Maybe I should inquire from Rochester personal injury lawyer about my case and see whether I can take any legal action against the doctor. Will really think about the matter after my operation. Personally, I do not think that the doctor is negligent. My hubby asked me to consider going for MRI Scan to confirm the doctor’s suspicions. For the time being, I want to have a peaceful mind. Don’t want to worry so much for now.

Just as I thought I have to work hard doing all the chores in the house, I am forced to rest. I should look at the operation as a blessing in disguise. It gives me the reason to rest, rest from doing household chores. I think I will ask hubby to buy for me the outdoor pillows so that I can also rest outside the house when the weather permits. It’s no fun being stuck in the house all the time. Comfy comfy pillows, where are you… .

Looks like I would not be able to go out for any party invitations for the next one month. I’m praying hard that I would be able to recover fast after the operation. There would be a lot of restriction or “pantang” on the food that I can eat. Well, in a way, that is good for my body and for my baby too. Have to eat all the healthy and clean food. But I do wish that I can get a taste of the party food too. Hmmm…maybe that one can wait

Going for an operation to remove the IUD tomorrow. How I hate to go for operation.  Just thinking of the pain I have to endure during operation and the pain after the operation makes me want to cry already. Three months after giving birth to Ezra, I was ready to go for exercise to keep fit and make my body slimmer. Already thinking of getting one ellipticals so that I can exercise at home. But with this operation, looks like I have to forget about my resolution for a while. Praying that the recovery will be fast and I would be able to slim down again very soon.

I love to multitask but there are certain jobs that are out of my capabilities. Changing the lightbulbs or repairing the broken chair is way out of my expertise. Those are for my husband to do. It is his job to make sure all the appliances in the house are up and running well. I know he has been wanting to buy a few of the industrial products that he says would be useful to do his job but so far he managed to maintain the house using whatever tools he already has. Well, maybe in future, when the need arises he will get some of his wishes.

My heart beats so fast as I see the urine goes thru the pregnancy test strip. It was a huge relief when I see there is only one line appear on that pregnancy test strip. Then I double confirm with the lab personnel that did the test; “Not pregnant right?” She smiled and nodded. Phew! What a relief! No more fear of getting pregnant again.

When fully breastfeeding and not having menses yet, I can’t count when is my safe period and when is not. And you know lar, men…they won’t listen to you one and they refused to wear condom so I have to resort to using other type of birth control. That is why I have to take the pregnancy test to confirm that I am not pregnant.

Yay! I am NOT pregnant.

Something has gone pretty wrong with my Canon camera. The macro function can’t work anymore; close up are blurry now and the battery runs out very fast. At first I thought it was the battery fault but when I pressed the battery compartment, the power came back again. The camera has dropped a few times so it is kinda expected that it will die soon. I hope it can still function as long as it could because I have no money to buy a new one.

Brought my 3 months old baby for his monthly check up just now. I took the opportunity to weigh myself. For the past 3 months, I am been eating a lot but not during my recent vacation. Will share about that later. I ate and drank a lot as to maintain my milk supply. There was one day which I did not eat much, my milk supply immediately dropped; I panicked. Since then I felt that I might need best weight loss supplements because I felt fat. Thank God the scale showed 50kg. Still maintain the weight after I gave birth to my baby. Phew!

Hubby had the privilege of re-living his bachelorhood for 4 days while our children and I was away in Kuching. He could take this advantage to go on one of the cruises but he can’t. Because he has to work at his shop from 10am to 12am every day except on the last day before we return. Guess what he did on his last day of being a bachelor? He enjoyed a plate of fried chicken at KFC all by himself. I wonder what he would do if we leave him during the weekends when he does not have to go to work.

Hubby encouraging his 11 weeks old son to preach about Jesus and save souls when he grows up.

Now the pain is over, literally. And I am enjoying the time I have with my baby and other 3 children which sometimes can be very stressful especially when it comes to Chinese homework. Can’t imagine how I would handle it when they actually go to a Chinese Primary school next year!

Anyway, I have this crazy thought. Since I am a SAHM now, might as well I go give birth to 2 more; twins is better, suffer one time for 2 beautiful babies. But then finance is our only problem. If God bless us with sufficient income each month (without me needing to spend time on the computer, blogging), I think I’ll go for it.

Do you think I am crazy?

There was a another thought that pops up before this. I told my mom that I want to give birth at 40, so that I have someone to accompany me at home when the rest leave home for their studies or building their own nest.

I think I think too much. People wants to be child-free during their old age, I want to have a child with me.