On last Sunday we made reservation to watch Avatar. This will also be the first time I am leaving my 9mo baby under the care of my mom for more than 2.5 hours. So I prepared his porridge and brought the slow cooker to my mom’s. My mom never cook his porridge before you see so I can’t just leave everything on the table and leave. I have to give instruction to her on how long to cook it and when to add in the apple pureed. Some of of his grains spilled too, so I have to salvage whatever I can and put it back into the slow cooker. If not, my baby won’t have enough to eat.

On the way to the cinema, hubby took the wrong turn coz he heard me wrongly. We were stucked in a jam and were late. I don’t understand why he must blamed me for being dilly dally at my mom’s. It was he who did not listen to me in the first place.

Honestly, I am still very upset about this.

I’d rather not go for another movie than being blamed for something that I did not do.

I was very excited that we are finally going for a date again. Just hubby and I. We made a reservation to watch Avatar 3D tomorrow afternoon and our children will be in the safe arms of my parents.

Just when I am about to get excited, my right tummy pain became more intense and I was so tempted to pop in painkillers if I can find any. While bathing with the children, the pain was so intense that I raised my voice at them when they dilly dally. I felt very bad after that.

I called hubby hoping that he can come home to prepare dinner for our children and take care of them for a little while while I lie down to let the tummy muscle relax and get some rest. Unfortunately, his helper did not come in yet and he is not sure whether she will come in or not.

I can’t get help from my parents coz they are attending a wedding dinner.

What to do? Cry lor and ask God for help. Thank God the crying and praying helps to release the tense and the pain subsided a little bit and I quickly prepare dinner for my children before they starve.

Just when they are enjoying their burgers, hubby came home. His helper came in. Yay! PTL!!!

I am so happy that hubby is home today until this evening because his part-time has started to work for him again. That is why you see blog diarrhea here. I hope his part-timer will work for him more often this month. I am planning to bake some CNy cookies when time permits.

The timing is just right. At the moment when I almost fall apart, he has a new part-timer and the old ones started working for him since yesterday. God knows that I need a helper badly.

That is what I need to get the next time I have time to go shopping. I read from www.wrinklecreme.net that Dermavexin is the top 3 best wrinkle creams but I don’t think I can find any here. Buying from their website is another option but the shipping rate is double than the price of the wrinkle cream! I guess, I will try the wrinkle cream that I can find locally first to see whether it works. If not, I have no option but to spend more for beauty sake.

I am wondering whether I have eczema or just sensitive skin. On certain days, I will be scratching away on my legs especially at the front lower part. I have not tried eczema cure because I am not so sure what causes it. Visiting skin specialist would cost me a bomb. Since it is still bearable, I bear with it. I just make sure that I wash my legs thoroughly after going out; especially when I go to the farm where the grasses all long.

My eldest girl has started primary school and I hope waking up early and going for dance class would help her lose some weight. She has her daddy’s build and low metabolism rate. Dieting or taking weight loss product itself is not sufficient for them to lose weight. They must exercise and sweat it out. Now I worry less about my girl’s weight so dancing is very tiring. Yesterday was her first class and I was so glad to see that she sweats a lot during the lesson.

Since I gave birth to my 4th child, I lose a lot of weight. People thought that I took phentermine. Well, breastfeeding and singlehandedly taking care of 4 young children burns lots of calories! I am having my youth weight and new people I met complemented that I look very young and was so surprise when I told them that I have 4 children and the youngest is an 8 months old baby. Hubby was telling me that it is how God compensates those that bore many children. How true is that?

Yesterday was the first time I slept 3 hours only without any nap in the afternoon. Surprisingly, I did not feel sleepy at all until I brought my girl back from her school extra curriculum activity in the evening. Once I sat on the sofa and relax, the sleepiness strikes. I tried to nap but my mind could not stop thinking because there are still chores undone. I only managed to finally sleep at around 11pm that night. If this continues for a long term. I will surely need to read up on the eye cream reviews to get rid of the eye bags.

I have an uncle that has flawless face. No scar and not a single acne on his face. I really envy him and was wondering how he took such good care of his face and where did I went wrong. Until one fine day, I saw him topless. The moment he turns his back towards me, I saw a whole patch of acne on his back. So there is where he hides his acnes. Since they are easily covered up, he did not go for any body acne treatments.

Only 3 hours of sleep and I did not break down today. Well, I guess my body is adjusting to this new schedule.

It is good to cry. I felt better after I cried out all my tiredness, sleeplessness and frustration.

I talked to myself too. Telling ME to be strong and that all this shall pass too. And everything will be better soon.

I must be strong for my children. I have already scared my eldest girl from becoming a mother!

If not because of the ex, I would have a MBA degree. He never encourage me in pursuing higher education. Why? He was just a Form 5 school leaver and with me being a degree holder already made him feel inferior and insecure. Anyway, that’s my past. If any of you is in the same situation as me, it is never too late to pursue your dream. The trend now is online university.

If I am still working I would love to sign up for the online mba with WGU so that I can climb the corporate level faster. It is specifically designed for experienced business professionals and managers who are seeking upward mobility. They use the competency-based approach to education which is an ideal match for experienced business professionals with extensive “real world” experience.

For more information, do check out their website.

How long does it takes for Michelle, the so called Supermom to breakdown due to lack of sleep and tiredness?

The answer is, exactly 7 days.

And I must sacrifice my nap too to run errands.

I need to go pay apartments maintenance fees, I need to bring the rubber mat to the tenant and I need to go to the bank but I dare no drive there coz I worried that I might doze off when driving!

When can I complete the above task? School holiday I guess coz that is when I don’t have to wake up at 5.30am.

How to release stress? There are lots of way of releasing stress. Some go to Outer Banks vacation rentals, some go for bungee jumping, some just go for a stress therapy massage, some eat and eat and eat…just do something that will take off your mind of the cause of the stress.

I just realized that I have a stress buster with me 24/7. Here is my stress buster…

My ever smiling cutie pie.

When I need someone to make me smile; his smiles melts my heart and can never make me not smile along with him.
When I need someone to hug; he is so huggable.
When I need someone to cuddle; he is so squishy.
When I need someone to enjoy a makan with; he loves food.
When I need someone to scream, he will scream along with me.

etc…

Life would be sooooo stressful is God did not bless me with this cutie pie.

I foresee that this year is going to be a challenging year for me. I am kind of excited to see how well I can cope this time.

Firstly, 3 of my children is going to school. No.1 to Primary School and No.2 & No.3 to kindergarten with different schooling hours. Yours truly is going to be their driver.

No.1 will be studying in a Chinese school and I know no written Mandarin at all! I have no idea how can I guide her with her homework. I also understand that there will be no English taught in that school until she is in Primary 4. So, I must continue to polish up her English at home.

No.2 will be in 6yo kindy class and she still can’t recognise all her ABC, let alone reading books. My No.1 knows her ABC when she is 2yo and started reading at 4yo. No.2 is going to Primary One next year and I have one year to teach her to read. This is going to be a tough job coz I failed miserably before; not enough patience.

No.3, I am taking easy with him coz he is only going to be 4yo this year.

No.4 started crawling yesterday. Soon he would not want to sit in his walker any longer and wants to explore the house on his knees and palms. When this happens, I can no longer mop the floor once a week and close one eye on the mess lying on the floor. They must be crawling baby-proof!

I am not not expecting the family maid will be back that soon coz MIL’s eyes are still not healed. How to heal coz she did not pantang (abstain) from eating unclean food like seafood and certain kind of fish; everything she eats.

Drive more, clean more, cook more, teach more, run errands for hubby whenever possible and blog too!

Since hubby can afford to take over the household expenditure, I am planning to save my online income for family vacation. I pray that soon, God will provide an honest full time worker to work at hubby’s shop and by that time, I will have saved enough for a holiday destination locally; maybe even buying medical travel insurance for the whole family.

Both hubby and I have worked so hard last year and we deserved to take a short break soon. If God says so lar.

Praise God that hubby went to work later today. I did not have to wake up early to cook for him. I did not cook today coz I forgot to thaw the blended chili last night. I wanted to cook Nasi Lemak actually.

So we planned to eat out and maybe bring our children to circuit city but we received a phone call from my mom that save our money from eating out. My mom cooked Nasi Lemak too! So we head to my mom’s and enjoyed her Steam Nasi Lemak and hubby pack some for his dinner then head to work.