First Love…never let it go

My life is not my own. I have no control over it. I want this, I want that but it is God who determines what I get and what I don’t get. Many times, what I want does not coincide with His plan for me and He gave something else. Many times I have to take what He gave whether I like it or not. I can’t throw it away and I can’t give it away either. It is mine to keep forever.

Learning to surrender.

Imagine this…

You are engrossed watching your favorite movie for the umpteenth time; let’s say KungFu Panda. Your Dad come and switch off the TV and said, “Enough of DVD, come let’s go shopping.” You throw tantrum because you do not want to go shopping, you want to watch KungFu Panda. You got very mad at your Dad.

But you didn’t know that your Dad has a surprise for you. He is not only going to bring you shopping but he is going to bring you to watch KungFu Panda in a cinema. Much, much better than watching from the pirated DVD.

God has switched off my TV. What is the surprise God???

God is really testing my faith now. He blessed me so much financially in May that I decided to give 1k to the church mission fund. Last month, my income dropped to almost half; I have yet to write my cheque for the mission fund.

End of last month, the client’s requirement became more stringent. Yesterday I come to know that the company that I am doing business with had a change in management. I do not know whether the new management would still want my service or not. I will know next week. Praying for the best.

A pledge is a pledge, even if I earn only 1k this month, I will give that 1k to God. I have to refrain myself from going shopping often and only buy best buy items!

God never break His promises to bless and I will not too!

It started by bringing The Charlie’s Angel for a movie; Made of Honour on our dating night.

Followed by Juliet’s 17th birthday; not my son’s. He is so excited to cut the cake.

Then SIL’s (Juliet’s mom) birthday; a day after. Sorry lar, my son stole the limelight again.

Guess what Hilda is looking for.

I got shopping kaki on Sunday! But before that, must feed them well before making them walk, walk and walk.

We have a good time of fellowship at Old Taste Kopitiam with our missionary friend who is back for the school holiday. Interesting stories, eye opening stories and jaw dropping stories. I love being in their presence. They are funny and they are real. They are so down to earth unlike other missionaries that I’ve met before. They only tell you about the good stuff.

With them, we received first hand experience about living the life of a missionary. It kinda prepares us on what we should look forward to when our time comes.

Can’t wait to meet them in Cameron Highland sometime this year!

Have you heard that phrase before? Touching People, Changing Lives. That was the Chi Alpha’s USM Christian Fellowship theme when I was in 3rd year if I am not mistaken.

We as a Christian should live up to that phrase. Are the people that we meet and come across in our daily ins and outs are being touched by us? Are they being touch by the Christ-like in us?

Well, honestly, I do not often do that but when opportunity comes, I will try my very best to touch people’s life.

At present God is blessing me abundantly financially. More than I could ever imaging. More than I asked. At first I thought, maybe God is granting my desire to own a new car. But that is kinda selfish to spend on oneself, not that I do not have a car. So hubby was saying, maybe God has something bigger for us that requires us to have more than enough.

So, instead of keeping all the blessing to myself, I spread it around. I started sharing it with a few bloggers. Even at that time the income was just enough for me, I still give. I am so happy when I received emails telling me that my little help has really been a blessing to them. Then God bless me with more!

So I give more to my missionary friends.

Today I made someone VERY HAPPY and lifted up some of her financial burden. I can keep the blessing all to myself but helping others and changing life is my top priority. I will loose some but I won’t die of starvation, people won’t come knocking at my door asking me to pay up my loan, I can still survive with simple lifestyle. Words can’t describe how happy I am that I made someone so happy today. See, I am changing life here.

Just now during church, I pledge to God that since He has blessed me so much, I am going to give RM1k a month for 3 months for the church Mission Fund that would be used to the help the less fortunate. That is a lot of money to me but I know there is more from where that came from. My Father in Heaven is richer than thousands of Tycoons in this world. (oh ya, when we give our left hand is not supposed to know what our right hand did but I wanna make sure I don’t change my mind last minute! hehe)

Like I wrote in my previous post. We are God’s vessel. When He pours something in it, He is expecting us to do the same. Let us “pour” them to someone else and change life. Wouldn’t you be excited, wouldn’t your life be more meaningful when you know that you are a part of their changed lives? Change for the better of course, not for the worst, ok! =P

I am so happy that God gave me more opportunity to bless others. I am enjoying His financial blessing now not all by myself but with people who are dear to me, with people that I just met on the internet and with friends that are in need of financial support.

Well, this is the main reason that God channels His wealth to us. Not for us to hoard but to give as He has freely given to us. If only all the rich man thinks the same, I believe there won’t be poverty in this world.

Got this in my email today…

An eye witness account from New York City, on a cold day in December, some years ago: A little boy, about 10-years-old, was standing before a shoe store on the roadway, barefooted, peering through the window, and shivering with cold!

A lady approached the young boy and said, ‘My, but you’re in such deep thought staring in that window!’ ‘I was asking God to give me a pair of shoes,’was the boy’s reply. The lady took him by the hand, went into the store, and asked the clerk to get half a dozen pairs of socks for the boy. She then asked if he could give her a basin of water and a towel. He quickly brought them to her. She took the little fellow to the back part of the store and, removing her gloves, knelt down, washed his little feet, and dried them with the towel.

By this time, the clerk had returned with the socks. Placing a pair upon the boy’s feet, she purchased him a pair of shoes. She tied up the remaining pairs of socks and gave them to him.. She patted him on the head and said, ‘No doubt, you will be more comfortable now.’ As she turned to go, the astonished kid caught her by the hand, and looking up into her face, with tears in his eyes, asked her.

‘Are you God’s wife?’

HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!

All of us always ask this question, “How Can I Receive God’s Blessings?”

I go to church every week, I pay tithe, I give to the needy, I behaved well etc but I have not receive God’s blessings. Where did I go wrong?

I have the answer to that question. Yes! I know How We Can Receive God’s Blessings.

Easy only…

No 1. Read Psalm 1
No 2. Memorize Psalm 1
No 3. Meditate Psalm 1
No 4. Apply Psalm 1

And whatever you do will prosper. Not I say one know. God said that.

Here is Psalm 1: 1-3

1 Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.

2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

3 He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.

That was what hubby preached just now in church. =) Maybe one day I should get hubby to preach about addiction treatment through the Word of God.

I better go memorize my Psalm 1 now. =P

I forgot to mention that when we went to visit Uncle George and Aunty Grace, we only bring a small container of Kaya and before we left, Aunty Grace gave us a bottle of Ribena, a can each of Curry Lamb and Curry Chicken. It was so embarrassing. They are pensioner and we are working people, make us look so stingy eh.

Actually visiting them was a last minute discussion so we are not prepared with any gift for them. I just scoop op my homemade Kaya as our gift. I think we should keep some wine gifts in case of last minute home visitation again.

Praised God that we finally managed to gather RM67k for my SIL. All from her brothers and sister; one of the benefits of having many siblings.

I understand from one of my BILs that someone came to harass them for money on Easter Sunday. I wonder whether they are from the mortgage lenders. I hope not. And my SIL locked herself in her room for hours not wanting to talk to anyone due to the stress that she is facing.

Stress is not good coz it fools around with your hormones and this does not help in making her heal faster from her breast cancer.

I really hope that God will heal her ASAP and bless them financially indeed; more job offer for her hubby.

We went for car hunting just now. We are quite attracted to Proton Persona; the price is attractive too; affordable. Full loan of 9 years, RM565 a month. Praying that God will bless hubby’s business and my blogging that we would be able to settle the loan before the 9 years is up.

We will only decided to buy after we return from our Genting trip this Monday. I wonder whether they would offer freebies like medicare advantage. Tinted glass they will.

I am so excited. I can’t wait to drive a new car again; especially for hubby. As far as I know, he never own a new car before.

I shall work harder and pray harder.

This post is taken from my children’s blog.

I was chatting with Chinnee and she asked me about my love story. This is what I found.

Watched Kuch Kuch Hota Hai on TV3 last night (from 11pm until 2am). A Hindi movie acted by Shah Rukh Khan, Kajol, Rani Mukherjee and Salman Khan. I seldom watch Hindi movies but not this one. I watched this movie many many times until the pirated VCD cannot be played anymore! No matter how many times I watch it, I will sure shed tears.

This time around, I watched it with hubby.

Just the 2 of us.
Rest my head on his broad shoulder.
Arms wrapped around his muscular body.
My sexy legs, wrapped around his hairy leg.

Very rare occasion. Coz most of the time, either the children or mom-in-law will be around.

The movie reminds me so much of my love story and my first love. First time watching it when I was still with my ex. Dreaming and hoping that he will be as sporting as Salman Khan to let me go to my first love. And my first love will actually confess that he still loves me and saved me from marrying my ex. Well, not going into details here. You can read more about it here.

Even after the movie ended, I still shed tears while lying in bed thinking about movie and my past. I am so relieved that it is my hubby besides me, not my ex. But the thought is not enough. I requested for us to become one. It was a sweet moment of a union between 2 lovers plus a beautiful sexy lingerie.

Thank you Lord for blessing us with each other.

After a year of contemplating and trying to do things our way and not God’s way, we surrendered and obey. We are closed every Sunday to honor God’s Day.

For the month of January we see God’s blessing like never before. The highest sales so far was in the month of January. Finally hubby have some salary in January.

This month, we are being tested. Not only this is the shortest month of the year, this month is also CNY which we will be closed for at least 3 days. And so far the sales has been very low. If it continues like this, I wonder whether we will have enough to cover cost.

Anyway, we are trusting that God will bless. He did, many times in our life before. We just need to keep on obeying His commands and trust Him.

My SIL; my brother’s wife is a nurse and she has been working as a nurse for more than 10 years. Two years ago, she stopped to care for her children when my brother left to another state for work. Now my brother is back in home and she has started working as a nurse again.

She did mention to me that she might get the medical id watch if she did not resign two years ago as a token of appreciation for loyal staff. Anyway, I think she would get one soon because she is really good at what she does. All the doctors and nurses love her.

Oh ya, talking about my sister. She just started a kindergarten. Not hers but her boss entrusted her to run a whole kindergarten by herself. She has to start it from scratch. The other day, she went shopping to get all the necessary stuff for the kindergarten like cups, plates, forks and spoons and not forgetting medical supplies too. Where you have active kids around, there will surely be falls and cuts.

We went to McD to celebrate the prosperity that God is going to bless us with. I had my favorite Prosperity Burger.

I am just kidding on the celebrating part. I just wanted to eat the Prosperity Burger.

We are expecting God’s blessing especially in the business.

We are doing what most internet cafe owner wouldn’t do on Sunday. We are closed on Sunday. To honour God.

By closing on Sunday, we are going to “loose” a minimum of RM800 a month and that is a huge amount for us but we are trusting that God will provide. He always does. I know that.

Note: Do you know that mesothelioma is an asbestos-caused cancer?

I really praise God for His blessing. I can now finally say that I got a job with an online Australian company. Don’t worry, it is not a scam. They spent an hour talking with me this morning on the phone going through the work that I need to do.

If you read my other blogs that you would know that I am determine to resign from my current job to be a SAHM or if God provides, WAHM. Well, God really provided. I will be a WAHM.

At first I thought blogging can help me get the income that I will loose but with the Google smack down, there’s not much bayar post for PR0 blog. So bayar post cannot put rice on my plate.

In the same month, I was approached by the GM of the online company offering me the job. I really believe that it was God who brought him to my blog because when I asked him, he said he has no clue how he got to know my blog. He was searching for parenting blogs and he spotted mine. Out of thousand parenting blogs, God directed him to mine. Thank you, Lord.

So now, I won’t be blogging about online casino, online debt, credit cards etc to get the income for my family.

It seems that he has much more laid down for me and it is going to be a long term commitment. I hope in a few months time, I will be flying there for training so that I could recruit and train others for the same job.

Sharing my blessing.

2007 a year of financial blessing.
Life is full of uncertainties when hubby quits his full time job in church on July 2006 and started the business on Oct 2006. I was so worried about our finance but bravely, I surrendered it to God. Come end of December 2006, I came to know about making money blogging. Throughout year 2007, I lack nothing. I have more than I could ever imagine. I could buy gold chains for my children but I did not. I give. I gave more than I could have done before. I really praise God for His blessing that I am able to bless others as well.

2008 a year that I really look forward to.
A year that I finally decided that I wanna be there for my children all the time. A year that will begins my journey to equip myself for the mission field. I will be studying again, TESL. A year where making money blogging is not so lucrative anymore. But I really praise God that He opens doors for more blessings to come. I will share more when it really materialized.

I shall worry no more as I know that He is always faithful, He will never leave me nor forsake me.

A day after Christmas. A day to box people around. Hah! Hah! Because of you I have to spend so much to buy present. Bush! A punch flew over his face.

This Boxing is not the fighting kinda Boxing. This refers to the box that is used keep our present. Boxing Day is a day to either keep the present you received in a box or throwing away the boxes. My version of Boxing Day. hehe.

I so sad, I have nothing to unbox coz no one give me Christmas present this year, not even custom printed calendars.