First Love…never let it go

In the book of Malachi, the Lord accused the people of being unfaithful. The men were divorcing their wives. God says that He hates divorce because divorce would not fulfill God’s purpose for marriage. God’s purpose for marriage is so that we can build up godly offspring. Furthermore, when a man and woman are married, they are one in spirit and flesh. Divorce breaks the spiritual union of the married couple. God warns not to break faith with the wife of your youth. Marriage is an important role in every human being.

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Not during altar call in church just now. With 2 kids hanging on my legs, I don’t think I can be slained. hehehe

Last night I dreamt that I was slain in the spirit. Wow! The feeling was awesome and so wonderful. I really miss that touch of God. I can’t remember when was the last time I was slain in the spirit. Maybe during campus days where I am really opened and desire for God’s touch in my life.

What happened now? I dunno. As time passes by, there are so many things happened in my life. My heart are hardened to the spiritual things. I have this kinda thoughts that those that are slain have some kind of problem in their life that is why they need the touch from God.

God has blessed me in so many ways. In a way, I think that I am okay, I have all the basic things in life. No complaints. Ok lar a little bit here and there but I can do without it.

I guess God is reminding me that I do need His touch or He wants to touch me or maybe there’s this inner desire to be in God’s presence, to be touched by God.

I learned something new this week.

A Pastor of a church is like a Shepherd. His church members are his sheep.

Sheep likes to wonder around and the Shepherd will go after that sheep.

So a Pastor’s job is to show care and concern towards his church member. Chasing after sheep is his job.

So, can a Shepherd blame the sheep or punish the sheep if the sheep does not go to him?

If in the first place, the Shepherd never show concern, never build that close relationship with the sheep, do you expect the sheep to get close to you?

We had lunch after the service with Pastor and her staff. We have 3 ladies running the church.

Since hubby’s calling and passion is in the mission work, he has been given the responsibility to organize a mission trip to Sarawak soon. It will be after June. I am so excited about it. Looks like I will going to my first mission trip after a long 7 years of “holiday”. After I got married and have children, I am stuck here under my “coconut shell”.

Now I really have to start keeping myself fit. Not only to slim down but for the coming mission trip.

All of us always ask this question, “How Can I Receive God’s Blessings?”

I go to church every week, I pay tithe, I give to the needy, I behaved well etc but I have not receive God’s blessings. Where did I go wrong?

I have the answer to that question. Yes! I know How We Can Receive God’s Blessings.

Easy only…

No 1. Read Psalm 1
No 2. Memorize Psalm 1
No 3. Meditate Psalm 1
No 4. Apply Psalm 1

And whatever you do will prosper. Not I say one know. God said that.

Here is Psalm 1: 1-3

1 Blessed is the man
who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked
or stand in the way of sinners
or sit in the seat of mockers.

2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

3 He is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither.
Whatever he does prospers.

That was what hubby preached just now in church. =) Maybe one day I should get hubby to preach about addiction treatment through the Word of God.

I better go memorize my Psalm 1 now. =P

Thursday, our night but tonight we don’t feel like going dating. Instead we went to visit Uncle George and Aunty Grace; the parent of our missionary family who is now serving in Cameron Highland. Hmmm…now we good reason to go to Cameron Highland but our car does not permits us yet.

Uncle George loves to talk, sharing his experience and knowledge, a man full of wisdom. We enjoyed listening to him.

Sad to know that the church has stopped supporting their daughter and family.

Sad to know that the church is decreasing instead of increasing in the number of members. People are leaving. We left. *sigh*

Glad to know that Uncle George and Aunty Grace is as healthy as they can be. God is really good to them.

I love his plants. He really have green fingers.

He got nice bar faucets too in the kitchen.

Uncle George!!! What is I.V.E??? Maybe this is a trick to get us to come back to visit him soon.

We are determine to bring Clarissa to church whether she has temperature or not. The fever left her that night (Saturday night) itself.

So obvious that the devil is playing his game and we won.

All glory to God.

And we believe that it is the devil’s work.

Almost every weekend one of my children will fall sick and due to it, we skipped church to care of them and not let other children in church get the virus that they might carry.

Last week, Belle had fever. Today, Clarissa’s turn and we are not going to skip church. We will bring her to church and let the pastor pray for her.

Not going to allow the devil to prevent us from going to church.

On Thursday as we were driving along the Klebang Besar road, hubby pointed to a building telling me that since he started practicing (law) he has been praying that the owner will bless the church with the building to be used for ministry purposes like a drug rehab centre. Then the building was run down and looks abandon. Now it has been renovated but still no occupant. Maybe the building is meant for ministry that’s why until today, it is still empty unless and until the owner bless it to the church.

We skipped church again yesterday because my eldest was having a temperature. Normally we would send them to my mother’s if the sickness is not so serious but yesterday, my mom went to Seremban to visit my aunts. So I stayed home with the kids and let hubby go to church.

It was quite a relaxing Sunday for me. Bathe them, feed them, watch cartoons with them, read with them and of course discipline them when they go over the limit.

I don’t mind opening my house for the church activity or for business performance management discussion but I do mind when it falls on special occasion where I want only our family to be involved.

This Sunday is hubby’s birthday and their will be a youth meeting at our home. It was supposed to be on Friday but is postponed to Sunday. They didn’t know about hubby’s birthday though.

So my plan to spend the night with hubby has to be canceled. We will go out to celebrate the occasion earlier, on Thursday most probably but it won’t be the same like as on the day itself.

I love this song. It brings me so much memory. I danced a sign language dance to the song. I still remember going to Salvation Army to learn the sign and the dance step from Edward, the choreographer. We performed it during the Christmas Joy celebration in Malacca. Can’t remember the year. Unfortunately I have totally forgotten the steps. :(It is also the dance that brought me closer to hubby, then just a friend. After learning the dance, I taught it to some of the church members. Hubby is one of them. We performed in our church and also dance at others church that invited our pastor to preach. It is a very good experience traveling in a group, no travel insurance needed coz we travel locally only, performing before others and blessing them with our God given gift.

I miss those days.

It has been more than a year since I last see him standing behind the pulpit.

Well, he finally preached again last Sunday. His sermon is taken from the book of Kings, 1 Kings 19:9b-18 about prophet Elijah.

You can read about it here: Out from the cave.

I was very frank with hubby about his preaching. I almost fell asleep! The flow was not smooth and he repeats the word “Come out from the cave” too many times till I lost concentration.

It shows that he really rusted already. I am sure after a few more preaching and getting use to the congregation, he will preach better.

Looking forward to the next one. Dunno when.

The lady beside him is not me. She is the translator. Translating from English to Malay.

Saturday is going to be an ironing day again for me because the pastor of the church that we are attending is making it compulsory for the church leaders to wear formal shirts and ties during Sunday service. I don’t mind ironing but it means that I have less time to blog and I don’t really like that idea.

If I live in UK, I will sure get the above shirt for hubby. A classic herringbone shirt Non-Iron shirt from Van Heusen. The Van Heusen brand has been around since 1919. Through many years of experience and “evolution” I am sure their shirts comes with comfort and quality. It comes with very attractive price too. If you buy more than 3 pieces, it will only be £25 Each. If you check out their Clearance sale, you can even get a shirt from just £15.

*sigh* Due to hubby’s coughing, we are not able to attend church again. He cannot be in an air-cond room, his coughing will get worst.

Honestly, in this period of my life, attending church is not so much to listen to the sermon because I can’t hardly pay attention with children playing in the mothers’ room. I enjoyed the fellowship with other Christian, enjoyed the worship songs and for my girls to attend the Sunday School and mix with other Christian children.

I just hope and pray that no one fall sick again this coming weekend. We has a church camp to attend.

Yahooo!!! I am going for a church camp in less than 2 weeks time. This will be my first church camp with the new church that I am attending now. The camp will be held in a resort in Port Dickson. Beach!!!!! And swimming pool!!!

Ok ok, my focus should not be on holidaying, it should be a time to seek God, to be refreshed by His word. I need a revival. I hope I can. With a baby to care, it’s kinda difficult to worship and hear His word being preached.

I do hope to mingle around and get to know more church member.

Hmmm…I need to shop for a swimsuit.

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore You
Hope of a life spent with You

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that You’re my God
You’re altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
Oh so highly exalted
Glorious in Heaven above
Humbly You came to the earth You created
All for love’s sake became poor

I’ll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

I grew up in an English speaking church since 1992. Due to hubby’s business, we are attending a BM church. Until today, I still am not able to worship in BM. Their worship songs are not in my head. I long to return to an English speaking church.

I wonder whether this is the work of the devil. Causing my children and sometimes myself to fall sick on Sunday which prevents us from going to church. On many occasions, we failed to attend church because one of us fall sick.

Belle just vomited. Barnabas just fell asleep. Hope his fever won’t come back. I just recovered from runny nose. Not so sure whether it is advisable for us to attend church tomorrow as I worried other babies will get infected by whatever virus that we carry.

I just came back from Penang attending a friend’s wedding which was held in PCC on Saturday. On Sunday, I attended the church service at TOG. The church that I attended when I was studying in USM. Sad to know that many leaders and members left. I was not told the reason why but it has to do with the dollar sign. My previous church are in the same situation. Member’s wanting to leave because the pastor is not transparent when it comes to money issue. Why can’t they be transparent?