He bought a slack. It needs to be altered; shorten. Since I can sew now. I offered to do it for him. So, I happily took his old pants and used the same measurement. The next day, I happily inform him that I have shorten his slack. Instead of thanking me, he said in a not no nice tone, “You know my measurement meh?” I told him I followed his old pants. “You want me to sweep the floor with my pants arh? I still need to fold that pants you know.” How would I know, he has a few pants and I don’t keep track which he folds and which he does not. I wish he would use different approach so that I won’t feel that hurt like, “Thanks Dear BUT if you follow that pants, it is still be long bla bla bla bla.”

Ok ok lar…I am being very sensitive here.

The date of the mission trip to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah has been confirmed. It will be a 4 days trip and we are so happy that we managed to get one of our ex-church members to help with our business. If we can have him for long term then hubby can plan to go for more mission trips which is his passion, his calling.

Yet again, I am stuck here with my own mission to raise Godly children. I thought marrying a soon-to-be missionary, I will be able to go for mission trip more often but I am so wrong. My last mission trip was to Sarawak a few months before we got engaged. After that, I’m stuck at home.

Anyhow, I am trying to help in anyway that I can besides praying for the team. I am hoping to be able to sell more Mr Plattie (Soft Toy) so that I can contribute to the mission fund. Unfortunately, I only managed to sell 2 Platties.

I did post my intention in FB but most of them “Like” my status and commented that I have a good heart. Don’t just “Like” and compliment me, support my good intention by buying some Platties for your kids lar.

My hubby is one who does not really bother whether you are pretty or have lots of acne on your face but no all men are like him. To him and also most of us, if one is pretty but have bad characters and attitude, their pretty looks does not matter anymore.

When I was still studying in uni, one of my roommates has a very vain boyfriend. He will read all kind of reviews pertaining beauty. I am sure he read exposed acne treatment reviews. He even plucks his own eyebrows! How many men that you know do that? His girlfriend finds it hard keeping up to his standard and before they graduated they broke off and this roommate of mine went out with a not so good looking guy. I think she is phobia dating good looking guys.

After 9 years of marriage, I am thinner and he is fatter.

Nothing special on this 9th wedding anniversary. I left our children home around 7.15pm with maid and MIL and head to hubby’s shop with my Canon camera. Must captured our special day mah. We then left to the new Jusco for dinner and jalan-jalan. Hubby wanted to eat something that we often eat when we were younger. So we ended up at Kenny Roger’s. Being the only customer there, we were served with super shrink chicken (spring chicken?), over steamed corn and dunno how many times reheated baked bean. If I did not come with hubby, I think I will just walk out from the restaurant.

After dinner, we had a cup of yogurt ice-cream each at Kaizer. Yum! Then we just hold hands and window shop. By 9.30pm, we left Jusco then I headed home to our children who misses me a lot, especially my baby who refuses to sleep without me. Hubby came home shortly after that.

I breastfed Baby to sleep and I slept till the next morning.

The end.

As I was driving home from sending hubby his lunch, I was tailing behind a red Kancil driven by an old man. He drove very slow and he is on the outer lane. So I over took him on the inner lane since it is a 2 lanes road. Right at the moment I over took him, he decided to change lane and almost bang my car! Thank God I was quick enough to swerve away from him and thank God there was no lorry parking at the side of the road like any other day. If not I will have to hire Texas Truck accident lawyer to sue that Kancil driver.

I wish he would tell me this, “Dear, tomorrow you can sleep in. I will get the children ready for school and send them to school.” Of course on the day that he does not have to work full day so that he can come home after that to continue his sleep.

But like my title says, it is wishful thinking. It will never happen unless I am really, really sick. It is because he requires 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep if possible. Unlike me, I can sleep for 1 hour then wake up for 2 hours then continue sleeping for another 3 hours before getting up to start my day. And if my baby wants to latch, I might doze off for another hour. On some days I can catch an hour nap with baby. So I do get my 4-6 hours sleep every day.

I would love to have 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep but being a wife and a mother, this is one of the sacrifices that we have to make.

That is what my 2nd daughter commented when I told her the reason I was crying yesterday. “Daddy is very rude for not telling you that he is going to botak (bald) Baby’s hair eh.”

I am still very upset and very angry. Not because our 11mo baby is bald now but his action of secretly balding our baby’s hair without my knowledge.

What else he would do secretly?

I cried buckets yesterday until my mattress is all soak with my tears but the anger still did not want to go away.

Today, hubby pretended like nothing happened! He ALWAYS thinks that he is right. And he will NEVER apologise.

I am PMSing again and it falls on the wrong day; Saturday, the day I hate the most. I felt like throwing a heavy industrial equipment on anyone that steps on my foot!

Due to much washing, my right index finger cracked again. It feels like a knife slicing through it when I use that finger. I can’t get all my housework done as planned.

Thank God Baby is kind to me today. He napped for 2 hours and so did I. At least that cools me down a lot.

How many of you can agree with me on the above phrase? I am not talking about incest! I am talking about your dad’s character in your husband.

The father is the first and most significant role model in a girl’s life. That’s the first man that they loved and look up too. Unconsciously, we will look for a man just like our dad provided he is a good dad.

I married my dad. My hubby manages our finance just like my dad; even my mom commented on that. My hubby does not talk much; just like my dad. My hubby leaves the household chores solely to me; just like my dad. Never once I see my dad sweeps, mop, cook or hang the laundry. My dad never bath us!

Thank God my hubby is not 100% my dad. He is not hot-tempered like my dad. He does bathe his children, mops, sweep, cook and hang laundry when I show my long face.

I see my hubby as the better version of my dad.

I don’t know lar. Since I married him, he has quiet a number of motorbike fall. He thinks too much I think until he cannot fully concentrate when riding his bike. It is the same when driving too. Many times he almost bang the bumper of the car in front because his mind tends to wonder.

Hello hubby! Why worry about tomorrow?

This “Family Planning” got nothing to do with making more babies or stop making babies.

For 2 Sundays, hubby and I got the opportunity to go out “dating”. Leave the children with my mom and we went to have our quiet dinner.

We took this opportunity to share and plan.

He shared about his business and his business plan. By God’s grace, we hope to settle the business loan by the time our youngest baby turns 1 year old.

I shared about our children; their education, and walk with God. I felt that I have a greater task than hubby. I am to raise godly children! This gives me goosebumps!

I shared about my thoughts; being poorer than my other siblings. Hubby made me realised that we are not poorer than them. We just don’t owe the banks and credit card companies a lot money. And we do have a house; 2 apartments to be exact. It just that we don’t live in them and don’t pay for the monthly installment thus I don’t feel like owning them.

Glad to know that I am more blessed than them.

I have stopped considering entering the workforce again.

After 1.5 years not needing to step into the office and more than half a year without any helper helping me with my household and kids, I got the hang of it and kinda loving my new “job”. Even if there is jobs in philly that offer very good remuneration, I will pass without thinking twice.

I find satisfaction and fulfillment when I see my children grows up right under my nose.

Yesterday was our ROM (registration of marriage) 9th anniversary and we totally forgotten about it. Hubby remembers though; a day after that. He told me this morning. If he does not, it won’t come across my mind at all.

I guess it is not a significant date for me to remember. Even though we were legally married since that day, we did not lead a married life until we are married before the Lord on May 12 in the same year.

Looking forward to the month of April and May. April; my No. 4 baby will be 1yo!

Hubby is so relieved that his preaching is over. Even though he has been preaching numerous time, he still feel the tense when it is time for him to preach again. His sermon this time was about Joseph. And I felt so kuncheong whenever he mentioned, “my wife” in his preaching. Dunno what he is going to reveal to the congregation about his wife!

As for me, my freedom is having to have my privacy again in my home coz MIL and her maid has left for KL yesterday. Freedom for me means not much free time to be online but I am free to do whatever I like and wear whatever I like at home. And most of all, no one interferes with the raising of my children. No Mak Mak and Kakak to run to when Mommy says, “No!”

Two Saturdays ago I suffered so much pain on my lower abdomen. When bathing all my 4 children that evening, I thought I was going to die coz it was really really painful. I gave a call to hubby get him to find out the funeral costs just in case my time is going up that day. No lar, I called him to come home to prepare dinner for our children coz I can hardly stand to cook. Sadly, he can’t come home coz his part-time has not come in to work yet. So, I bore the pain a lil while more and prepared a quick dinner; hamburgers.

Last Saturday, the pain came back again but it was not as severe as two Saturdays ago. Well, I am most busy on Saturdays and the children are home. I go more work and cleaning to do and I get easily stress up when they mess up the house and when they had siblings fight.

Now, my toughest assignment is to stay cool on Saturdays despite the workload and screaming children.

On last Sunday we made reservation to watch Avatar. This will also be the first time I am leaving my 9mo baby under the care of my mom for more than 2.5 hours. So I prepared his porridge and brought the slow cooker to my mom’s. My mom never cook his porridge before you see so I can’t just leave everything on the table and leave. I have to give instruction to her on how long to cook it and when to add in the apple pureed. Some of of his grains spilled too, so I have to salvage whatever I can and put it back into the slow cooker. If not, my baby won’t have enough to eat.

On the way to the cinema, hubby took the wrong turn coz he heard me wrongly. We were stucked in a jam and were late. I don’t understand why he must blamed me for being dilly dally at my mom’s. It was he who did not listen to me in the first place.

Honestly, I am still very upset about this.

I’d rather not go for another movie than being blamed for something that I did not do.

I was very excited that we are finally going for a date again. Just hubby and I. We made a reservation to watch Avatar 3D tomorrow afternoon and our children will be in the safe arms of my parents.

Just when I am about to get excited, my right tummy pain became more intense and I was so tempted to pop in painkillers if I can find any. While bathing with the children, the pain was so intense that I raised my voice at them when they dilly dally. I felt very bad after that.

I called hubby hoping that he can come home to prepare dinner for our children and take care of them for a little while while I lie down to let the tummy muscle relax and get some rest. Unfortunately, his helper did not come in yet and he is not sure whether she will come in or not.

I can’t get help from my parents coz they are attending a wedding dinner.

What to do? Cry lor and ask God for help. Thank God the crying and praying helps to release the tense and the pain subsided a little bit and I quickly prepare dinner for my children before they starve.

Just when they are enjoying their burgers, hubby came home. His helper came in. Yay! PTL!!!

Yesterday was the first time I slept 3 hours only without any nap in the afternoon. Surprisingly, I did not feel sleepy at all until I brought my girl back from her school extra curriculum activity in the evening. Once I sat on the sofa and relax, the sleepiness strikes. I tried to nap but my mind could not stop thinking because there are still chores undone. I only managed to finally sleep at around 11pm that night. If this continues for a long term. I will surely need to read up on the eye cream reviews to get rid of the eye bags.

Only 3 hours of sleep and I did not break down today. Well, I guess my body is adjusting to this new schedule.

It is good to cry. I felt better after I cried out all my tiredness, sleeplessness and frustration.

I talked to myself too. Telling ME to be strong and that all this shall pass too. And everything will be better soon.

I must be strong for my children. I have already scared my eldest girl from becoming a mother!

How long does it takes for Michelle, the so called Supermom to breakdown due to lack of sleep and tiredness?

The answer is, exactly 7 days.

And I must sacrifice my nap too to run errands.

I need to go pay apartments maintenance fees, I need to bring the rubber mat to the tenant and I need to go to the bank but I dare no drive there coz I worried that I might doze off when driving!

When can I complete the above task? School holiday I guess coz that is when I don’t have to wake up at 5.30am.