This is the birthday present that I got from hubby.

I was given an option between an Osim Foot and Calve Massager, a Singer Sewing Machine and a Flat Iron. I chose the later coz it is the cheapest.

Thank You very much Dear.

I GOT BIRTHDAY PRESENT THIS YEAR!!!

I’ll let you know what it is on my birthday. Tak lama, a few more days only.

For the past few days, hubby has helped wash the dishes instead of just leaving them in the sink. He even help to wash whatever I left in the sink after cooking. This I normally do if baby wakes up before I finished washing. I’ll wash them when baby takes his nap after his morning bath.

He even helped to clean our son’s vomit which I left to send my eldest girl to art class yesterday. I am so “allergic” to vomit. I will usually end up vomiting if I have to clean them myself!

I am really thankful that hubby helped me with the chores whenever he is around. I really need it.

Love is selfish.

I told hubby that if I were to die first when we are still young, I do not want him to re-marry. I want him to take care of our children by himself. Maybe he can employ a maid to help him but with his mother or my mom’s supervision. I know that I would never re-marry if he dies first. No one can ever replace his place in my life. And I want him to do the same too. I can’t bear seeing him together with another woman. See, I am selfish. hehehe.

He told me that he does not think he will do a good job raising our children all by himself. He said, “Either I die first or if you die, please die together with our children.” Like the option is mine like that.

After reading the touching story, he said, “That’s why I said you must die with your children.”

I like receiving gift but I don’t like buying gift. It is not that I am stingy but I am sooooooo not good at getting one. I will always end up buying the wrong thing. If the gift is correct, the colour won’t; just like the watch that I bought for hubby a few years ago. If I tell him to choose and I pay, he will refuse it and tell me to keep my money. Anyway, his birthday is coming and I really do not know what he wants besides MORE children! He did mention that he wants a playstation. I can’t remember whether it is PS2 or PS3 or maybe I shall get his the xbox 360?

Dear, what do you want for your birthday? Tell me earlier so that I got time to save.

Love conquers all.

Hubby preached in church last Sunday. Honestly, I have no idea what was his sermon’s title! All I know that he preached about shining to the world, good Christian role model, be a good Christian role model and about the book Emotional Purity. He even brought a lollipop and licked it in front of the congregation! Go read the book and you will know what I am talking about.

A few hours before the preaching started, that was around 6am, I woke up from my nightmare and went to look for hubby to tell him about the nightmare and to be comforted by him.

It so happened that the dream coincide which his preaching topic and he shared it with the congregation! How embarrassing!!! Not only that, he went further and shared some personal stuff. The moment he said “Lastly…” I let go a long sigh of relief!

How I wish I was an Ostrich and I can stuff my head in a hole.

This is beautiful…just received it from my SIL via email (fwd email! hahaha)

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly gentleman in his 80s arrived to have stitches removed from his thumb. He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00.

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it would be over in an hour before someone would be able to see him. I saw him looking at his watch and decided since I was not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.
On examining it I saw it was well healed, so I talked to one of the doctors and got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had another doctor’s appointment this morning, as he was in such a hurry. The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife. I inquired as to her health. He told me that she had been there for a while! As she is a victim of Alzheimer’s disease.

As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit late. He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised and asked him, ‘And you still go every morning, even though she doesn’t know who you are?’ He smiled as he patted my hand and said, ‘She doesn’t know me but I still know who she is.’

I had to hold back tears as he left, I had goose bumps on my arm and thought, ‘That is the kind of love I want in my life. True love is neither physical nor romantic’.

True love is an acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not be.

This is our latest look. He with his silly face; as always and I with my new bob hair cut which I regretted because my eldest daughter said it is not nice.

Do we look like we have 4 children already??? I still feel like we just graduated from varsity.

We hope that we will grow old gracefully and without any sickness if possible and not bedridden please. Can’t imagine having to wear adult diapers and my children having to wash my butt butt! So embarrassing.

I sacrificed my job so that I can spend more time for my children; nurturing them and teaching them.

I sacrificed my sleep so that I can help hubby earn for the family.

I sacrificed my health so that we can have many children. 4 is ENOUGH!

Will the husbands do the same?

It was our 8th wedding anniversary and like every year before we went out for a special dinner, just the 2 of us. This year, this can’t be done because my newborn is fully breastfeed. We need to bring him along. So our choice of places to eat is very limited; furthermore, I am still in confinement and there are a lot of food I still can’t take.

We ended up having our anniversary dinner at Seoul Garden; BBQ Steamboat. The place is very clean and not many people too. For the first 15mins, my newborn slept soundly in the stroller and I have an interrupted meal. Unfortunately, he poops and then he wanted to latch most of the time when he discovered that he is not at home; feeling insecure I guess.

As always, hubby felt that it was not value for money because we only eat one type of food for a quite big sum of cash. He said, next time around we should just eat a lil bit here and there and get to try more varieties of food.

Ok then, for his birthday, we shall do that.

After watching this video clip made by Yasmin Ahmad titled Funeral, I will not complaint or scold hubby when he farts in his sleep.

Thank God hubby did not snore. hehehe.

My 4th child is coming into the world real soon. Honestly, until this day, I do not know my feeling towards him. Actually, I did not expected him to come into our life that soon. Yup, an unplanned pregnancy; all my other 3 are unplanned too.

For almost 3 years, I have set up my mind that my son will be my youngest and I love him to bits. I pampered him as my youngest. Now his place will be taken over by this 4th baby. I actually feel sad for my son. Will he be neglected? Will he feel neglected?

But then, come to think of it, when I found out that I was pregnant with my 3rd, I didn’t want it! But when he came out from my tummy, I won’t trade anything in the world for him; maybe he is a boy, the son that we have been longing for.

I really hope that I will have the capacity to love my son the same and yet at the same time love my 4th as the youngest. I hope that the bonding will come the moment I breastfeed him. There won’t be any new baby bedding because I always co-sleep with all my children. Easier to breastfeed that way.

What we did not do was going for Satay Celup dinner because it was raining quite heavily and this wife doesn’t want to get wet walking from the car park to the restaurant. Well, when it is raining, you tend to run to get out of it and I can’t do that anymore with my 8 months tummy.

So I picked a place where there is sheltered car park. We ended up at MBO cinema watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. Our dinner was a quick bite of Fish and Chips at Marry Brown. By the way, we did not park at the sheltered car park because by the time we arrived there, it was only drizzling.

I was telling hubby that we could only go for our 2nd honeymoon during our 10th Annivesary that is when our 4th child is already 2 years old and hopefully he/she has weaned of from breastfeeding.

Would love if we could afford to join the New York City Sightseeing. Cruising on the top deck of the double decker bus, admiring the high rise buildings in New York City and visit places of attraction in NYC especially their museums. If it is God’s will, one day we will do just that because there will be many more anniversaries to come.

We slept in separate room.

He left me with a hug and a kiss.

He is at work from 10am to 12mn.

Don’t feel sorry for us. We don’t celebrate Valentine’s Day.

Today is just another ordinary day for us.

I can’t remember what happened!!!

All I can remember that after he sign off his love letter to me he will write this date: 920212

Was it the day we fell in love? Or the day we officially declared our love for each other?

Whatever it is, on that day a beautiful and complicated relationship began.

It started with really short distance relationship. We live just 2km away from each other and we worked in the same restaurant. However it only lasted for a few months then it turned into a long distance relationship; he in KL and me in Malacca.

KL is not THAT far but coming from a poor family, KL is VERY FAR. That is when the problem begins because my language of love is Quality Time. I need him besides me as often as possible but he can’t fill my love tank due to financial constraint.

Anyway, that is not what I want to share today. I told my love story many times in my blogs. What I wanted to share is about God, being the center in our relationship.

I fell in love with him because of his Christ-like character. I wanted to know what made him so different than any other guys that I knew. The more I know that it was God who made him who he is, the more I want to know about his God (i was a non-believer then you see). That’s how our friendship begins. Me, searching for the Man behind his wonderful character. Him falling in love with me because I am a tomboy!!!

Most of our dating topic revolves around God and His Word. We often prayed together and commit our relationship to God and asking Him to bless it. Innocently we prayed that He will keep us together no matter what happened in our life because we know that we are still very young then and there are much challenges in life that we will face.

True enough, we went our separate ways 2 years later but 8 years later, God brought us back miraculously! It was a miracle to me because he registered for marriage and I almost got married too! And we broke off because both our almost life partner to be was not compatible spiritually and was pulling us away from God.

Now, almost everyday, I will thank God for giving me back my David.

I received red roses from hubby (then boyfriend) before but not on Valentine’s Day because the price is unbelievably expensive on Valentine’s Day. I remembered the first time he gave me red roses was the day he came back from Cameron Highland. I received 3 stalks of red roses from him which I dried and kept for almost 10 years. On Valentine’s Day I got the plastic red roses!

The crazy lovebirds. The nickname given by hubby’s niece; Hilda.

We were enjoying our BBQ dinner on a swing under a durian tree.

I enjoy seeing God working in my life. Even though at times I grumble and become angry at Him but I never blame Him for making my life journey a lil tougher. It is because I know that He has a purpose for everything that He is doing in my life. I have seen how He works in my life and He has am not done moulding me yet. If He has, I would be in Heaven with Him right now! Hah!

Even though my life is a lil bit difficult now, I am not panicking yet. I do worry but I know that whatever happen, He is holding my hand and He will not let me fall as long as I don’t let go of His hand. But I think arh, even if I let go, I doubt He will let go of me because He loves me.

Took this picture this morning while waiting for the bridegroom to arrive. It is my youngest sister’s wedding day today.

Hubby look so sweet in this picture!